Thursday, August 28, 2014

It's been a long time... 6 weeks out.

A lot of people read this blog still--and DAMN, how things have changed. Let me clear some things up:


  •  I took a long time off from competing. I'm 6 weeks out from my next show in San Francisco now.
  • I bulked for eight full months. I reverse dieted by pushing my calories upwards 100 every 3-4 weeks.
  • I made a switch to IIFYM (if it fits your macros) a long time ago. I restored my metabolism. I repaired my relationship with food. I have developed a major eating disorder due to "clean eating." The fear of gaining weight again will never go away...but I can maintain my bingeing through IIFYM. 
    • I EAT WHATEVER I WANT--if it fits within my caloric and macronutrient levels. ANYTHING--there are NO bad foods. Cake, cookies, ice cream, Oreos, pasta, bread, chocolate, cheesecake--don't care. Even on prep--6 weeks out--I eat it if it fits.
    • This doesn't mean I don't eat "bro food" still. I do. I eat lots of chicken and veggies. I make sure ALL of my micronutrients are in check before I eat my desserts.
  • I built a lot of muscle. I got a lot stronger. I gained weight. I have a much bigger butt. I post my whole life on my instagram @ohilyssa
  • I got sponsored by Serious Nutrition Solutions!
  • I got a Welsh Corgi puppy--Leia!
  • What else do you want to know?
2 days out from my last show vs. 6 weeks out now. TOTALLY different body.

Gl00tz

Oblique and back.

Sunday, February 16, 2014

Why Alcohol and Bodybuilding DO NOT mix.



I don't drink. I never have. In college my friends dragged me out to bars, and we went to Vegas for New Years, and we went to house parties held by the sports teams...but I would be the sober one. Always. Even in Vegas during New Years! OCCASIONALLY I will have a glass of wine with family or Crown Royal on the rocks... but when I say occasionally, I think the last time that happened was in July 2013 when I went to Vancouver with my Dad. Alcohol isn't exciting for me, I don't like the way it makes me feel, and it's not conducive to my goals and aspirations. That being said, alcohol is not a cheat meal. In fact, I don't recommend cheat meals for anyone because the idea of eating anything you want in excess dangerously can turn into binges and cause multi-day consequences. Cheat meals are actually, in my plan, RE-FEED meals. They still hit macros, with an increase in carbs. Re-feed meals are earned. They are meant to be lower-fat, higher-carb refeeds of glycogen to your muscles. For this to happen, we recommend eating at a deficit or lower-calories throughout the week with 4-6 intense training sessions. Your glycogen levels are low and your insulin-sensitivity is high. Re-feed meals, in my plan, usually don't happen until the very last week once the individual has seen progress and gotten used to counting and prepping. If you're going to have a glass of Red wine occasionally, I don't see a problem in that. Alcohol is 7 calories a gram--more than a carbohydrate or protein gram and without any of the nutritional benefits (empty calories). If you are maintaining a macros-focused diet and training 5-6 times a week and then having the occasional, low sugar and low calorie alcoholic beverage...I think the effects in the grand scheme are negligible. Binge drinking, or anything more than a casual drink is absolutely a problem though.

Alcohol's effects usually span 1-2 days even after the night out. Alcohol dehydrates you. It inhibits VO2 (maximal oxygen consumption), it increases alcohol blood acidity, it can decrease your strength in the gym the next day...

Alcohol can leave you lethargic and it can affect the quality of your sleep--something essential for muscle synthesis and training performance.

Your liver may take two or more days to actually process and metabolize the alcohol in your system--energy and effort that should be spent metabolizing GlYCOGEN--which effectively inhibits and hinders everything LeanGains attempts to do.

You have testosterone in your system--men and women both do. We NEED the small amount of testosterone we have to build muscle. There have been studies that show that alcohol actually causes testosterone levels to DIP for up to 24 hours after drinking. Testosterone both breaks down in the blood stream and is inhibited in production. Alcohol also causes CORTISOL levels to rise and stay elevated while testosterone levels are suppressed...this means that your blood sugar will be increased for way longer than it should be. While cortisol is essential to carbohydrate metabolization, having it elevated for this long can affect the LeanGains cycling program because your metabolism won't be able to shift the way we want it to.

And of course: Alcohol INCREASES hunger and the possibility for snacking / munchies. While it would be fallacious to claim that all people who drink eventually eat over their calorie limits as well, the potential is there.

When out: Try alternating alcoholic beverages with 0-calorie drinks like water, iced tea, or maybe a Diet Coke. Wine, and clear alcohol are the best choices...especially if you mix the latter with 0-calorie mix-ins.

I'll connect again to the quote I mentioned up top. Are your choices and actions conducive to your goals and aspirations? While I understand that a social life is important and that you don't want to limit yourself from doing the things you love, but bodybuilding and attempting to get your body in the best possible shape often comes with sacrifices. I would love to sit on my couch some nights and eat pint after pint of Ben & Jerry's...but I don't because I know that what I am seeking doesn't mesh with that.

Thursday, January 9, 2014

Decided to push back my show so I can get fat.

Well... sort of.

I want to focus on gaining TONS of mass...and really let my body get used to eating food that I LOVE again. I'm going to help my boyfriend (Kyle / @sir_elsea) with his show in San Jose in four weeks, and then compete in a powerlifting meet in late March. My next show will be in May or June. (That's a full years worth of muscle growth!!)

I've discussed this a bit on Reddit, and those who know me in real life know, that I've strugggggggled with food pretty much my entire life. When I was a child, I ate whatever I want--like most kids do--and I played every sport under the sun, so I was exceptionally skinny. My mom would always tell me "the fact that you eat so poorly is going to catch up to you one day!" When my parents were going through their divorce, I never ate. I got down to about 98lbs at 5'7". By the end of high school I was 5'9" (I'm currently 5'10"). I've always been tall for my age, so once the poor eating (ice cream, candy, and snacks all day long) finally did catch up to me, I wore the weight well. I suppose it started around Senior year in high school, but I ballooned by more than 25 lbs by the end of my first year in college.

Fast forward several years to September 29th, 2012 when I started this fitness journey. I started counting calories (a measly 1460 a day--what a joke!) but I didn't really look at macronutrients at this point. I lost quite a bit of weight (you can see this in my earliest posts). Then, when training for my bikini competition, I started calculating macronutrient grams. For a while, it was fun trying to fit everything in. But I still only ate "clean" foods--what I perceived to be "clean" foods. Carbs NEEDED to be oats, brown rice, quinoa, sweet potatoes. Protein NEEDED to always be lean chicken or turkey. Fats NEEDED to be as minimal as possible--from meats--and MAYBE a bit of avocado. I refused to even have a tiny nibble of a cookie. Quest Bars and maybe a protein cheesecake were my "saving grace" when I had a sweet craving. But, I thought, this is what bikini competitors need to do! NO EXCUSES. DON'T BACK DOWN! DON'T GIVE IN! I got SO lean. I had abs! Combine that with an insane tan (I tanned for around 5 straight months), and I looked so so so tiny. 5'10", 128 lbs on stage. Currently, I'm around 136lbs, and I look and feel SO much healthier. But I didn't get to this point without going through terrible hardship.

After my show (where I placed 6th), I binged. I ate so much food and hated myself for the next couple of days. Then I would retract and start eating at my calorie limit... until I got into a situation (like July 4th) where there was tons of delicious food around. I would binge binge binge. Then I would retract and start eating at my calorie limit and do CARDIO every single day because I was self-loathing and punishing myself. Then a wedding came (October 5th) and I binged so badly that I almost vomited. Then I went back for more food. I was bawling my eyes out and my poor boyfriend looks at me and says "Ilyssa, there is something wrong. This is not okay." I flashed back to all the nights I would sit up in bed meticulously planning every freaking macronutrient PERFECTLY TO THE GRAM for the next days meals in My Fitness Pal. I flashed back to the all the times I WISHED I could just have a tiny bite of that cake, but NO NO NO ITS BAD ITS BAD WHAT ARE YOU DOING? GIVING UP? I flashed back to all the self-loathing I did when I was overweight and all the times I justified my 170+ lb frame with "Oh, it takes a lot of calories to maintain these curves!"

I realized that my self-loathing had just transformed itself into "clean eating" self-punishment.

It was then that I made a change. I decided I couldn't go on with such a strict diet any longer. I couldn't go through these phases of binging and restricting and binging and restricting. This was ORTHOREXIA--aka, only consuming foods you PERCEIVE to be healthy. I needed to find a healthy medium. So I started to follow "iifym" also known as if it fits your macros. Now, I eat whatever the hell I want--as long as it fits within my 1900-1950 cal a day, ~43 Fat, ~214 Carb, ~165 Protein limit. (On non-training days it's more like ~65 Fat, ~150 Carb, ~180 Protein). Last night I had the most massive bowl of Protein Frozen Yogurt. Now, I can fit in Chicken Tikka Masala. Now I can eat waffles. Now, I eat cookies. Now, I eat peanut brittle. Now, I go to YOGURTLAND. Now, I have jelly beans and mike n' ikes and M & Ms. But I do these things in MODERATION and they are generally my "dessert" at the end of the day after I've had a "clean" omelette, a chicken stir-fry, turkey taquitos, Greek Yogurt and a Quest Bar or something. I still get in my "healthy" vegetables and fruits--bananas, apples, carrots, broccoli, brussels sprouts, spaghetti squash... but I get to "TREAT" myself at the end of the night with a big bowl of Oats and Snickerdoodle cookies. Because, if I have the leftover macros, I'm going to eat it. Now I have curves again...but they're MUSCULAR.



I can talk all day about how this has dramatically improved my life (I wrote my e-book all about delicious desserts!: http://payhip.com/b/2MFj), and I'm not saying the food obsession is not still there...but I'm learning to deal with it... and I'm learning to listen to my body. And I eat when I'm hungry--which yesterday didn't start until 4 PM. It's 10:40 and I'm going to go make a waffle now. 1 TBSP Gluten-Free All Purpose Flour. 2 TBSP coconut flour. 1 egg whites. 1/3 cup Almond Milk. 1/8 cup Greek Yogurt. Baking Powder. Stevia. Salt. 50g (25 inside, 25 on top) Blueberries. Topped with Greek Yogurt and Sugar-Free Syrup.

Thanks for listening / reading my rant.

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

Monday, November 18, 2013

13 weeks out

Height: 5'10". Current Weight: 136.4 lbs. We are 13 weeks out from NPC Bikini-San Jose Fit Expo. 2 solid weeks into cutting. I'm NOT tan this time around so looking at progress pictures from last 13 weeks out is a little difficult. In any case, I know I have WAY more muscle this time! That's really exciting.




Today's Topic: Carb Cycling
Sidenote before I begin: The glute pictures above show my progression from my show in June, August, and then currently. CAKES. I'm feeling pretty great--especially considering I am carb cycling. 250g on training days, and 150g on non-training days. Sundays I eat 200g because I do light delt-training only. It's actually pretty funny that I find it MORE difficult to control my eating on higher carb days than low-carb days--probably because I know I can fit like 24 oz of Yogurtland if I really wanted to! On lower carb days like to day, I have more control and I get to eat more veggies=VERY full Ilyssa by the end of the day. In any case, I have seen a bit of weight fluctuation, but I cannot really judge if this is perfect for my body yet because I need a few more weeks of experimentation. I'm NOT taking TTA500 this time--mainly because it's not on the market anymore. I won't take a fat burner until DEEP in the cut.
I told my iG followers I would post my current days eats! If I have it planned out by the time I write my blog posts, then I will continue to do this.

8 meals. 2023 cal. 63F. 147C. 202P. 2167mg sodium. 38g Fiber. 78g sugar--NOM

  • Meal 1: Almond Milk Latte and 2 pumpkin banana squares. 180cal. 7F. 12.5C. 5P.
  • Meal 2: 4.5 oz 93/7 ground turkey. 100g yellow squash. 25g baby carrots. 232cal. 9F. 9.3C. 25P.
  • Meal 3: Shirataki Noodle Stir Fry. 2.75 oz 93/7 ground turkey with carrots, spinach, yellow squash, broccoli, zucchini, brussels sprouts and topped in 40g Low Fat Ricotta Cheese 267cal. 8F. 26C. 34.4P.
  • Meal 4: 4.5 oz thin-sliced chicken breast. 1 cup broccoli and a few slices of zucchini. 165cal. 1.8F. 5C. 32.5P.
  • Meal 5: 4.5 oz 93/7 ground turkey. 76g zucchini. 37g spinach. 216cal. 9.2F. 4C. 25.5P.
  • Meal 6: Omelette. 15 TBSP Egg Beaters. Spinach, Zucchini, and 1 Aidells Maple and Smoked Bacon Breakfast Link. Topped with 50g Avocado and 40g Low Fat Ricotta Cheese 340cal. 15.5F. 15C. 40.5P.
  • Meal 7: 5 oz Yogurtland Pumpkin Pie NonFat Yogurt with 1 pumpkin banana square and 9g almonds. 246cal. 5.2F. 40C. 9P.
  • Meal 8: French Toast. 2 Eating Right (or Sara Lee) 45cal/slice bread soaked in 2 egg whites, 12g Cellucor Cinnamon Swirl Whey and 1 TBSP Cinnamon. Topped in 1 Dannon Light and Fit 80cal Coconut Greek Yogurt, 1 pumpkin banana square and 9g almonds. 361cal. 7.2F. 34C. 40.6P.


ONE MORE THING: MY CLEAN TREATS AND HEALTHY SWEETS COOKBOOK IS COMING OUT ON NOVEMBER 27TH!

Saturday, November 2, 2013

15 weeks out

ROUND TWO!



I am 15 weeks out today from NPC Bikini Capstone Classic in San Diego. My weight is around 139-140 lbs. Way more muscle this time versus 15 weeks out from my first show. Cannot wait to update you all yet again! Wish me luck!

Sunday, September 1, 2013

I'm baaaaaack

So I took some time away from this blog to focus in on what my next set of goals were. I've been contacted by quite a few companies for mini-sponsorships and taste tests so I decided to come back and start to share my recipes on a weekly basis. I'm currently prepping for a powerlifting meet on October 27th (in the 132 weight class)...which means I am on a slow bulk at about 2000 calories a day. My weight is sitting at around 134-135. Coach wants me up to 138 and then we'll do a water cut for the show. I'm GROWING because I'm eating what I want as long as it fits my macros (iifym) and following a bit of intermittent fasting (not eating til 1-2 in the afternoon and then eating til about 10-11 pm).

Here are some progress pics. Tomorrow I will start the recipes!